CHECK OUT MY WITTY TITLE. Once in awhile I get inspiration for witty titles like that then I feel so pleased about it that I forget what I want to post about LOL lame. But okay obviously the title makes it a bit obvious??
I think it might be because of my 4102 project (cannot put full title of module because what if people search the module and stumble upon this post omg no cannot cannot). Basically 4102 is a research module and we’re studying parasocial interaction (definition below quoted from findapsychologist.org)
Parasocial relationships are one-sided relationships, where one person extends emotional energy, interest and time, and the other party, the persona, is completely unaware of the other’s existence. Parasocial relationships are most common with celebrities, organizations (such as sports teams) or television stars.
So we had to choose a target (like the celebrity in this case) and we chose G Dragon because err WHY NOT RIGHT HAHHAHAA. Ok I confess that this was partly my influence but let’s not go into details here right. This is not the main point. The main point is that I have had to watch / engage in a lot of GD videos because we were finding the perfect video to use as a stimuli for our project so I think it must have finally PIERCED THROUGH MY SUBCONSCIOUS and YAAASSSSS I MANAGED TO DREAM OF GD. Damn happy hahaha plus I was so tired yesterday so it’s rly like a bonus?!?!
Ok my dream.
I dreamt that I was seeing GD but he kinda broke up w me because he wasn’t interested anymore (CREYS). Then later on I switched POVs and I became this person who was working at the hotel that GD just checked in (omg makings of a sleazy romance novel BUT NEVER MIND LA BECOS IM THE MAIN CHARACTER ALONG W GD). Then he liked me and so somehow we started dating (ok I’m sorry my subconscious portrayed GD like that I’m sure he’s not!!!).
Somehow I followed him to Paris because he was touring. We were outside and decided to take a cab but then he couldn’t hail the cab because if the taxi driver knew that it was GD, he would try to kidnap us (my fear of the dangers of Europe has not faded obv omg). So at first I tried to hail the cab. But the first taxi driver that pulled over couldn’t pick us up I forgot why. Then because I was struggling w all the books I was carrying (I forgot why I was carrying so many books also omg maybe because the night before I was looking at a book sale at Thomson Plaza), I asked if he could try to hail a cab, with a face mask on ofc.
Then he managed to! So we climbed into the cab. BUT THEN when I saw the gleam in the taxi driver’s eye through the rearview mirror I was like OMG HE KNOWS. At the traffic light I hurriedly opened the door and the both of us ran out. And in my scuttling out, all my books scattered around and like GD huffed and he didn’t help me?!?!
So I was super upset then I was like ok yknw what forget it, please go do your own thing.
Then this is where my memory gets hazy and I cannot remember what happened omg but I think he does leave me then I go around do my own thing. Then after awhile he comes back to find me to say that he was wrong and can we get back together OMG /MELTS.
But damn sad la because I suspect my alarm woke me up at this time omg so I didn’t get many more nice moments sigh.
I’M SORRY MY SUBCONSCIOUS PORTRAYS ME AS SUCH A SELF IMPORTANT PERSON OK It’s not like I can control it. But I’m just damn happy that I dreamt of him, even tho the dream wasn’t as fantastic as I would have liked la. Then again, IN WHICH OTHER WORLD (but my dreams) WOULD GD BE INTERESTED IN ME RIGHT*. So I’m still v happy.
* As I say this, I rly hope one day I will bite my words and have the opportunity to take back my words lolol shameless.
In a quite unplanned moment, we were reunited in the library and I was a v happy girl :’) I dont think the three of us would go out together so v happy to have this little catch up session that happened so unexpectedly.
I was so touched when I woke up this morning and saw these messages from PJ:
(Topic was on whether I should write about my ~feelings~ about Big Bang’s MADE series)
Super thankful that my friends accommodate (and play along) with my dreams instead of laughing and/or mocking me (even though they do it sometimes la HAHA).
Also, I would just like to say now on 19 Aug 2015 that if it really happens in future, I didn’t engineer it and I won’t be kidnapping anyone or forcing anyone okay. I just like to dream BUT IF WHEN IT RLY HAPPENS I WILL BE VVV GRATEFUL AND LIKE WILL BE A TOTAL ROLE MODEL (PJ and ST pls refer to earlier conversations we had re this topic). WHEN it happens I will be v happy and surprised because IT WILL BE COMPLETELY ORGANIC AND NATURAL. Yes.
This holiday my favourite group of friends from uni have been trying to complete the Harry Potter movies while simultaneously visiting each other’s houses. It was Corrine’s idea of course. Things like that are always her idea hahaha. She insisted that Harry Potter has a very Christmas-y feel therefore we should watch it together.
So we did! Unfortunately our Harry Potter marathon was always cut short by our very conflicting schedules and inability to meet early. So we always met at around noon and had to go home at around dinner time. Which when you count… it kinda means we only can watch two movies per session D: So we didn’t get to finish it SIGH.
Nevertheless, it was lovely spending time w them! And rewatching Harry Potter ofc. I was surprised by how much I remember hahaha. I think reading fanfiction really consolidated certain parts of the storyline for me. PLUS my love for Draco Malfoy was reignited LOL. I think after the second session they were sick of my unwavering support for him no matter what he does. And my continual dissing of Ron hahaha oops.
Check out Sam’s face hahaha sorry but rly q funny the photo v cute also I love it.
We also celebrated Agnes’ birthday + Alvin made chocolates YAY! It was a lovely day just hanging out and watching Harry Potter Draco Malfoy.
Alvin’s selling the chocolates btw so lemme know if you wna order any I’ll tell him!! Quite affordable if I’m not wrong + yummy ofc!
3rd session was held at my house! No photos from Corrine’s house which was session 2 sigh. Bought the pants for everyone when I was in Thailand yippee we’re so matchy!! Taking the photo was so difficult T.T For some reason the people we asked couldn’t take the photo properly zz. Plus Sam came late and Alvin had to leave early so we had no choice but to quickly snap a photo at the bus stop while waiting for Alvin’s bus boo.
These four people rly hold such an important place in my heart. Thanks for making my uni life so much more colourful and happening and enriching. I can’t imagine Uni w/o y’all. This semester was our last semester all together because Alvin and Corrine are gna graduate, I’m going to go for exchange, Sam’s gg for NOC also sigh we’re all growing up and going to different places. Really hope we stay together! D:
I write this post with a heavy heart. Just earlier today the news broke that Luhan filed a lawsuit against SM Entertainment and sigh. Life will really never be the same (for them) again. For me also in a way I guess. I can not say that Luhan is my bias from EXO anymore ): I got a huge shock when i read the news and just like the previously time when Kris filed his lawsuit, I immediately searched for more information but really there wasn’t anything because all we know for certain is that he filed the lawsuit. It’s really quite upsetting but at the same time a part of me is quite glad that he now has a way out. I was really quite concerned about how there were so many reports about his poor health and how his fear of heights is worsened by the regular flights around 😦
So I felt that since today is the day marking the end of EXO OT11 (urgh I hate that they are 11 only. Imy Kris) as I know it, it would be quite appropriate to reminisce happier times of the concert.
Buying the tickets
I CAMPED at my computer to buy the tickets I remember. I was wiser from my experience of buying the YG FAMILY concert tickets the previous week so I tried to log in earlier. But I actually didn’t feel as anxious this time. In fact it felt easier to get the tickets for EXO as compared to YG FAMILY! I suspect it’s because I bought the tickets during the priority sales for OCBC cardholders. Thank goodness my mum has an OCBC cars heh. I bought the tickets back in early/mid July, before I went to Korea! The concert itself was on 23 Aug, Saturday. I remember I was in school on Friday when I realised they touched down in Singapore. FINALLY BREATHING THE SAME AIR AS EXO MY LOVES.
The long awaited concert day!!!
I had to go for ballet that day because I was already skipping the rehearsal to go for the concert. SMALL SACRIFICES. So after ballet, I showered and rushed down to Stadium to meet PJ. It was PJ’s first (and probably only) Kpop concert! Woohoo so proud of her! ^^ We decided to grab a quick dinner at Popeye’s since we had some time before the concert started. Went to look for Susu who was working after dinner! Susu used to work as a part-time usher at Indoor Stadium. We were rather excited to look for Susu because she was dressed in the new uniform that was in a rather ugly shade of blue. Plus PJ wanted to take revenge and take a photo of Susu working because that’s what Susu did the last time during the Juventus match that PJ was helping out at.
TO OUR UTTER SURPRISE, we didn’t even have to look for Susu!! She just appeared in front of our eyes. To be honest, I didn’t even recognise her. It was PJ who recognised her. Susu really looked quite quite different with her hair tied up. And she was super frustrated dealing with all the over-eager fans who could not ‘SELF-REGULATE’!!! Hahahah omg the “Can y’all please self-regulate” that Susu was shouting was SO hilarious. After awhile PJ and I decided to stop disturbing her (plus we already took enough photos of how she was wearing black socks with black flats) so we went away to find the East door.
Met Yin Juin, her sis, and Ruoxin on the way! Helped them buy the tickets hehe. Fellow fans must stand united together!!! The queue to go in was HORRIFIC omg. It went down the stairs and even u-turned and came back UP the stairs omg wth. I thought there wouldn’t be a queue since it was allocated seating!! It was probably the bag check slowing down everything zz. Oh well. ANYTHING FOR EXO.
I was so excited while queuing hehe. Saw the container/trailer trucks thing with EXO THE LOST PLANET plastered on it and started plotting how I could sneak myself in there. Then I think someone intelligently pointed out that there wouldn’t be much point oh well. Finally they scanned our tickets and we got in omg THE ATMOSPHERE WAS SO EXCITED. All the hopes of the fangirls crammed into the indoor stadium… I could really feel how everyone there was in love with EXO really.
We took some time finding our seats because it was a bit complex and we were seated quite high up sigh 😦 But what to do. Too much love but it doesn’t translate to enough money to buy good seats.. 😥 I remember we were quite angsty when we were looking for seats because it was almost time for the concert to start already and they were playing EXO songs and the fans kept SCREAMING SUDDENLY omg damn heart attack inducing really. But they were just screaming because a nice song came on hahaha -.- It was quite funny also because the fans were singing along but then because they were playing the Korean versions it was a lot of “SOMEONE CALL A DOCTOR lalalala … EH OH TOO MUCH YOUR LOVE dum dum OVERDOSE” hahahaha.
They opened the concert with something that quite resembled the haka which PJ and I found quite hilarious hahaha. Like they looked super not fierce. Maybe becos they’re so skinny?? Then it just looked quite like cute little boys trying to be fierce aiyooo. Tbh I’m not that huge a fan of people appropriating cultural references like that. I mean like, EXO probably doesn’t know the cultural significance of it to the Maori people and here they are using it to open a concert. But it’s EXO so I forgive everything HAHA. I never said I’m not biased ^^
I think the first few songs they performed were from their debut mini album which I haven’t really listened to. The first song they performed that I knew was Moonlight! YAY LOVELY SONG. But then they had dancers acting as flowers?!?! Which was really ?!?!?! for me and quite distracting.
I was torn between joy and an aching pain in my heart. My heart was CLENCHING from how they were SO NEAR to me but so far at the same time. Omg I really couldn’t stand it. I was trying to find a way that I could somehow fly down INTO THEIR LOVING ARMS. I also felt quite touched by the knowledge that they were performing so hard FOR US! THEIR FANS!! Omg I love it. This love between idols and fans… I think it cannot be explained really. You need to experience it to know it. The desperation the fan feels for recognition by their idol. Anything would do really. A tweet, a comment, a smile, A DIRECT GLANCE FROM THE IDOL. Omg all these seem like such small insignificant things right. But if I received any one of them from any of the idols I love I think I would collapse from utter happiness. Cannot sleep for 10 weeks. LOL
I screamed my love for them that night really. EVERYTHING ALL THE FEELINGS IN MY HEART. It was the only way I can get my feelings across to them.. 😥 To thank them for the joy they have brought to my life sigh.
I especially liked it when they spoke to us. How Baekhyun (or was it Chen?) was mocking Suho for his English omg SO CUTE. Prodding him to speak in English more before Suho finally gave up and said “My limit, limit” HAHA. Oh gosh so cute. I was also really happy that Lay, Luhan and Tao had a segment where they were speaking in Chinese (as like a brief interlude before something else happened). Them speaking in a language I can understand without subtitles (kinda) made me feel infinitely closer to them. And omg when Tao pressed the ‘car key’ and D.O. came out in a bathrobe SQUEAL HAHAHA. He really looked super cute with his expression of confusion sigh.
Oh and Luhan’s solo. THERE WAS ONE PART WHERE HE LIFTED HIS SHIRT WAIT AH I FIND A GIF. OH I FOUND A PHOTO INSTEAD hehehe.
I think I screamed just a littleeee bit louder when he did that. Just a bit. I couldn’t hear what he was singing though. The screams were OVERPOWERING. But gosh so proud of him!! And he did the Scorpion move. I will forever link that move to Infinite and Before The Dawn tho.
The other song that left a huge impression on me was My Lady. They performed it lying on the floor in front of a mirror so the effect was really really cool. I was wondering what on earth the mirrors were there for then I OOOHH DAMN SMART. I really loved it.
Video of it above with terrible sound quality. But you can see the effect right! AMAZING. GENIUS IDEA. I AM FULL OF PRAISE FOR IT. I really liked it.
I really enjoyed the brief moments of interactions and cutesy fun. Oh yes they performed Sorry Sorry, Dream Girl, Run Devil Run, Gee and Genie!!! SO CUTE. I loved the little homage to their sunbaes hehe.
All in all, I really enjoyed the concert although it was painful to watch. It’s even more painful now knowing that I will ever only see 10 members of EXO… 😥
Oh yes must include PJ’s recount:
Cause we were on the 3rd level during the exo concert she planned to absail down to the stage during a sad song using these thick wires that were hanging down from the ceiling and scream EXOOO I’M HEREEE HAHHAHAHAHA i rly don’t let you forget what you said during the concert hor HAHAHA
-.- Not true okay. SHE WAS REALLY DESPERATE ALSO HAHAHA. I have never seen her like that eh really. “KAAAIIIIII I’M HERE KAAAAIIIIII MY BABY” hahahaha omg PJ I love you hehehe.
Oh then since PJ and ST think I should I include this… Lay was talking about Singapore has a 美丽的夜景. I swear HE SAID THAT THE 夜景 IN FRONT OF HIM IS 新加坡最美丽的夜景 OKAY!!! So I just repeated after him lor.. “我！！ 我是新加坡最美丽的夜景！！！“ Of course I meant a collective 我… hehehe (insert shy face).
So that’s the end of my recount of my The Lost Planet experience. Sigh. Once in a lifetime really. REALLY BECAUSE LUHAN WILL NEVER PERFORM WITH EXO AGAIN. Omg my heart aches.
The first few weeks of school are rly q the best I think. I get to see all my friends in school again, start to settle into the routine (not monotony yet!) of school but schoolwork isn’t too hectic yet. I had quite the happening second week of school as well. The highlight of the week had to be seeing my loves EXO in real life. Oops sorry to the friends I met over the week. Not that yall are unimportant to me. ^^
My lovely lovely free day which I have been trying so hard to start with an aerobics + kickbox class. So far q successful in at least getting some exercise during the week. Doesn’t rly help that I eat like a glutton for the rest of the week tho. My appetite this few weeks has been quite vicaruous. To add to that, for some reason, I haven’t been able to have a proper lunch for a couple of days so I resorted to snacking which is terrible T.T
But anyway. Met ST for our very first study together time since 10000 years!!! We had lunch at Pizza Hut becos I was craving pizza (see what I mean about the exercise having no effect?? I am weak against food). Decided to drop by Popular to see if we needed any stationery. BAD MOVE. We walked past Golden Village and happened to glimpse the movie timings. “EH WNA WATCH MOVIE?” it all kinda went downhill from there LOL. What studying man.
So we watched Guardians of the Galaxy! Which was quite the cute movie even tho ST says it feels like it’s mainly made up of bloopers LOL. I was actually q excited about watching the movie since I went for the red carpet event (show off HAHA). Glad that the movie didn’t disappoint!!
Supposed to study w my sissy at Central Library after class but I ended up talking to Ben who’s rly being so super helpful and giving me a lot of advice and so many tips for exchange. Super thankful for helpful seniors!
(I realise that so far my week just sounds like a record of how I intended to study but failed oops)
DINNER WITH PJ AND ST!!! ♥♥♥
We went to the food court in Toa Payoh HDB Hub where EVERYTHING looked so incredibly yummy omg such joy in simple fare. I felt so Singaporean LOL. Ended up buying Hokkien Prawn Mee becos ST bought it also and it was so yummy. Plus I rly couldn’t decide what to eat.
After that PJ and I decided to get rojak becos I love rojak (actually no la I only love the 油条, the rest I tolerate).
Did my job as ex-intern by hashtagging the appropriate hashtags yay. Proud of myself LOL. #cheapthrill really.
It was a good night of hanging out w my best pals. I love you two / I love you too. SO PUNNY. I am of course assuming, rightly, that you love me. HAHA so secure in my position in your hearts right ^^
Finally met my long lost sexy friend Jefferson, Jiexiang and PJ for lunch in school!! Had my first YTF of the sem w them haha yay yay! Thank you so much for the gift Jefferson, I rly appreciate it! 🙂 it was quite lovely hanging out w them, talking about what we’ve been up to and gossiping and idk hahaha. Thankful for my NJ friends ♥
After they left, I hopped over to the table behind and joined my uni friends. EVERYONE IS CONVERGING IN NUS.
After school I had dinner w the new friends I made over the holidays! We had SO much trouble deciding what to eat omg it was terrible. Plus I was rly hungz 😦 settled for Bonchon chicken at Bugis + which turned out to be super affordable and yummy yay. Good choice. Then we had blackball for dessert and I discovered that I don’t understand the hype behind it becos it rly isn’t v yummy. So odd.
Didn’t do anything super special on Friday. But SATURDAY IS EXO DAY. Which deserves a post all for itself ^^
So my first ever internship experience has finally come to an end! 10 weeks at STB, in retrospect, feels a bit too short. Or maybe the time was just enough for me to learn a lot but not so long that I’ll be sick of it. In any case, I’m so glad that my first internship experience was truly one of the most enriching work experiences I’ve had so far. Which is kindaaa saying a lot with respect to myself because most of my work experience have been office jobs so far. So in comparison to the other office jobs I’ve held, my stint at STB has probably been the most rewarding yet. I’m not sure if it’s because it’s an internship though, so they feel obliged to ensure that I am getting something out of this experience as well hmm. Anyway here’s the process of my internship and what I feel and think about it! Probably going to be a bit long and rambly so bear w me 😀
I had my interview with my Reporting Officer (of course, I didn’t know she’d be my reporting officer then. To me she was just the assistant director of the department). I wasn’t very nervous before the interview actually, because she phrased it as meeting her for a chat. Also the venue was just at one of the cubes at the lobby of STB so it wasn’t a very intimidating location either. I did try to prepare for the interview by checking out the stb.gov website. But I now realise I should have looked at the YourSingapore,com website instead haha oops. At the end of my interview I had quite a positive feeling about it. It felt a bit like she liked me? And idk, just felt q positive about the whole thing.
True enough, several weeks later I got an email from her saying that if I’m still keen on the position then I have it! OF COURSE I WAS. I was so happy about it. I also applied for the CAG internship but when I went for the assessment centre, I kinda knew that I wouldn’t make it / am not cut out for it. So phew quite glad I wasn’t shortlisted at all hahaha. Blessing in disguise yay!
First day at work / first few weeks at work
On my first day I was left at the reception for quite a while with another girl (who I later found out was an intern as well. I thought she was there for a full time job man from the way she dressed and how she was holding a folder). Was feeling a bit conflicted about whether or not I should converse with her because she didn’t look thaaat friendly and I wasn’t sure if she’s an intern. I was afraid I might accidentally offend her if I asked if she was a fellow intern. SIGH should have done that, if I did, my first two weeks would be so different!
After a long wait, a guy from HR came to pick us up and gave us a quick lowdown on STB – the background, its mission / vision / values, the organisational structure, that sort of thing. Brought us around to get our temporary pass and to the IT people then he deposited me at my department. Met my buddy/ mentor Crystal who immediately struck me as a super bubbly and friendly person. In fact, I was quite taken aback and slightly overwhelmed by her. She introduced me to everyone in my division (and tbh I really couldn’t remember everyone until much later) and got me to sit at my desk and… read some stuff about what I was going to do. TBH the rest of the day is quite lost to me, not sure what I did but it was probably not much.
In fact, my first week of work didn’t have much for me to do I think. I attended several meetings which were quite eye-opening and was introduced to what I had to do. Was still quite lost at this point in time.
Oh yes and lunchtimes! I didn’t quite know what to do with myself at lunchtime. I wasn’t quite sure if my colleagues lunched together? Also I didn’t have anyone to have lunch with… 😥 So I usually waited around my desk until Crystal walked past asking if I wanted to join them for lunch. Then usually lunch would be quite the awkward affair for me. On one hand I wanted the ground to swallow me up to save me from the awkwardness and on the other I really wanted to join in the conversation but had nothing to contribute. It felt like my colleagues and I had nothing to talk about 😦 Sigh I was quite miserable. Not that my colleagues weren’t nice to me, please don’t misunderstand! Just that they have already known each other for so long. To have an intern suddenly joining in their lunch… I suppose they just continued talking as per normal but it didn’t rly include me / I couldn’t join in becos I didn’t rly understand the dynamics either.
Ryan Lai was also working somewhere in the building according to ST but then super awkz to suddenly email him and ask if he can lunch w me right! Especially since I’ve never spoken to him before. TOO AWKWARD. But then I finally spoke to him during ST’s party and it was SO incredibly coincidental that I happened to see him in the lift (as I exited the other lift) the following Monday. So I emailed him to say hello. Exchanged a few emails back and forth but it kind of petered out to nothingness because we didn’t really have much to say to each other LOL.
His last day was some time in June I think. I was quite amused when I received an email from him and the subject of the email was ‘SAYORANA’ HAHAHA. So friendly. From the slightly awkz email exchange to a rather friendly farewell. It was rather funny hahaha.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE PUI SAN – PEN PAL
ITS FINALLY MY LAST DAYYYYYYYYYYYY
ENJOY THE REST OF YOUR INTERNSHIP!
Quite amused hahaha.
Meeting the rest of the interns
Finally in my second week on a Tuesday, I spotted a group of girls sitting at the cubes at the lobby (where I had my interview!). Oh yes I should explain. The cubes are actually like cube-shaped booth seats at the lobby of the office. Great for little discussions/ meetings/ a place to chill rly! I was on my way back to the office after travelling all the way to City Hall for lunch w PJ. Then I saw these girls and thought to myself that they look like interns and how I wish I could be friends with them.
THERE MUST HAVE BEEN A SHOOTING STAR RIGHT THEN YKNW. Because later that afternoon, the intern who came in with me emailed me and asked for my number so that they can add me to a group chat they have!! OMG EXCITED TTM RLY. I was so delighted. Took awhile to craft my reply email and had to re-edit it to make myself seem like desperate HAHA. Also in the same afternoon slightly later, the HR guy who brought us around sent me an email, linking us up with Sharlene. I later found out that this was because she saw him at the pantry of their floor and asked if there was another intern around for her to collect. Okay kidding about the collecting part. But she did ask. And so he linked us up. A bit too late but yay thanks for the effort anw. So NOW I HAD A GROUP OF FRIENDS TO LUNCH WITH YAAYYYYYY. Life wasn’t so bad after that 😀
One of the first few ‘events’ we had! Planned a surprise mini birthday celebration for Sharlene (the only girl in glasses in the above photo)! Sharlene’s quite awesome really. She was the one who brought everyone together (for me at least) and I think she has such great leadership qualities. It’s quite amazing – I feel like I’ve so much to learn from her. Glad we managed to do something for her on her birthday in return ❤
Our little group of interns grew and grew as more interns joined later! There even was an intern who sat right opposite me omg YAY imagine my joy at having a friend on my floor. I mean, even though my colleagues were rly nice to me, I still kinda felt a barrier of sorts, BUT NOW I HAVE A FRIEND! On the same floor as me! And right opposite me omg!!! But tbh I found Gab a bit aloof and unapproachable at first. I think it was just a first impression kinda thing becos he turned out to be a pretty decent guy 😀 I was so happy to have friends at STB really. They’re part of the reason why my internship experience is so awesome!
Another super fun event we had teehee. Such awesome lunches we had together really. Gab and some of the other girls organised a potluck – wrap style! So we brought ingredients to make the wrap. We also celebrated Amanda’s birthday at the same time ^^ Killing two birds w one stone really.
Corporate Induction Programme
I think part of the reason why the first wave of interns are so tight is because it was kinda like all we had was each other? Because friends outside of STB wouldn’t really know what we were going through. It kinda takes one STB intern to at least slightlyyy understand what we were doing. Plus, another reason that Gab (the intern who sat opp me) mentioned was that we all went through the corporate induction programme in June, around my 5th week of work. The SUFFERING and the games and stuff really helped to bring us closer I think. Three days we had together! Wow.
We were all surprised to receive an email to attend a corporate induction programme. I mean, a one day thing would probably be understandable. But it was a three day programme!! I was quite surprised really. I didn’t expect them to be willingly spending their resources on us interns. So I was like whoa this is rather nice of them. The induction programme was surprisingly fun. On the first day was team building activities which included some games that felt like stuff out of my Secondary 3 camp AND HIGH ELEMENTS. So proud of myself for conquering it haha. On the second and third day we had talks in the morning. We went for an amazing race to the cultural precincts in Singapore (my first time in Kampong Glam!) and then on the third day it was a field trip to Haw Par Villa (which I skipped out on halfway because I had another event to attend – more about that later!).
It was quite interesting going through induction with the permanent staff also! Even though I think we kinda outnumbered or at least had equal number of interns to permanent staff haha. Felt like the age/ position barriers were lowered because we were all going through the programme together and it was rly q nice.
Happy interns at the end of the induction programme! I remember feeling a bit sian of the thought of going for induction at first because I heard stuff about how the previous batches build a raft omg. Also I was used to working and it was breaking the routine I’d gotten used to. But yay so glad we went! It was rly fun learning about STB and making new friends.
After the induction was work as per normal. Was quite overwhelmed I remember because I came back to a frenzy of image sourcing. I think one of the turning points probably was here when I helped to resolve a minor tricky situation. It was probably then when my colleague realised that hey this girl might be quite useful after all hahaha.
Work went on as per normal and I think slowly I became more comfortable w my department. They also trusted me to do more things and I helped out in more areas that what I was initially tasked to do I think. I was glad they trusted me with more work really 😀 Felt so useful and I really learnt a fair bit of soft skills from them – especially in dealing with external parties. Still not exactly close but I didn’t feel so awkward when we were together anymore. I suspect part of the reason was that I was no longer so dependent on them for lunch buddies alr HAHA yay :D:D
Okay temporary pause here because I shall continue the rest of my internship experience in the next post. Having everything in one post would be almost 5k words long. I don’t think anyone’s gna waddle through all that sigh.
Here’s part two of my reflection! A bulk of it is on my last day/week at work tho.
Exciting events I got to attend
Because I was also tasked to help out with the social media side of things, I got to attend some pretty cool events with the social media guy in my team 😀
YTFF Press meet and greet
On the first Friday of my internship my colleague asked me to attend the YouTube FanFest press meet and greet with him. Basically like a press conference of sorts? I was SO psyched omg. WAS MY STB INTERNSHIP GOING TO BE SO FULL OF GLITZY STUFF? Hahaha of course not omg. But attending such events was rly one of the highlights of my internship. Such a bonus that this happened in my first week.
I realised that attending events like that is not all fun and games and you’re not supposed to be just a spectator really. You really have to keep your eyes and ears open for any interesting tidbits to share on social media. Your hands are also kept busy trying to take a good photo of the event. Also, being from STB, you’re not exactly supposed to be just covering the event. There has to be a link to Singapore in some way or another. It was such an eye opening experience for me!
After everyone had a vv brief introduction and took two questions from the press, it was free and easy time omg. TIME TO TAKE ALL THE PHOTOS WITH THE YOUTUBE CELEBS!! I was so excited to see Xiaxue haha I really quite admire the way she writes and how outspoken she is. Even though I don’t always agree with what or how she says/does things, I really admire how she writes and is so persuasive about her views.
Also, it was only during the event that I found out about Troye Sivan omg he is SO REALLY REALLY ADORABLE IN REAL LIFE. Fangirl mode ON.
Obviously I went to check him out on YouTube when I got home hahaha. Don’t rly like the way he sings thaaat much but as a person (or at least his public persona) gosh he is so endearing and adorable. Noona fan here. SIGH.
Also shamelessly asked Tosh Zhang for a photo. I watched a few of his vlogs on YouTube before and I quite like the way he speaks actually. Quite different from the roles he takes up in local movies hmm.
Went home feeling quite starstruck and was showing off to my friends hahaha sorry for being so overbearingly obnoxious guys. i was just really excited about the whole thing.
Singapore Food Festival preview
We finally get here yay! FOOOOOD. I left the Haw Par Villa (or HPV as STB calls it) site visit early during the induction programme to rush down to Sentosa for this! Coincidentally it was during the Arts Camp beach day haha so I saw a couple of FASS people around. I wasn’t quite dressed properly for the beach tho so I was stuck with sand in my flats 😦 I also really wished I brought my camera sigh the food was GOOD.
The atmosphere of the whole event was also quite nice. It wasn’t too crowded, setting sun in the background and yummy food all in a 1 minute radius from each other wheeee. The only downside was the quite unbearable heat and the lack of space to put my stuff down 😦
After that we were invited to catch the Wings of Time – Sentosa’s new attraction which replaced Songs of the Sea. I remember thinking that Songs of the Sea looked quite lame and kiddy but apparently not. Wings of Time was quite spectacular, didn’t quite know what to expect initially. I wasn’t expecting a lot tbh. But I was surprised by the technology involved and how lights, water and sound could combine to create a story with what was initially just oddly shaped panels on silts in water.
I have to admit that the story is a bit lame and cheesy with an obvious moralistic line in it. But c’mon, we don’t really watch this sort of things for a gripping plot right! It was quite the spectacle.
Guardians of the Galaxy red carpet event
The last event I added as an intern! The red carpet event honestly wasn’t thaaat fun. Maybe it’s because I’m not into the whole Marvel film franchise? Or because I don’t exactly know the actor and actress who came down. I did get slightly swept away by the excitement of course.
So the lesson I learnt from this event was that not all events I go to will be super fun for me because probably a number will involve fandoms I’m completely not part of or understand. Even then, I can’t just switch off because the social media account that I’m managing isn’t my personal account. The fandom still matters to a lot of other people so I still have to at least try to find a bit of excitement in me for it.
I remember I fell ill after this event sigh. The week after that was quite torturous. I had a stomach bug / diarrhea. Then I think I am allergic to the medication so I broke out in unbearably itchy hives that lasted for more than three days. SO TERRIBLE T.T I was itching like crazy.
Last week of work
My last week of work really passed in a blur of deadlines and frenzy of emails. I cannot really remember what happened actually. But I remember sleeping at 3am from like Wednesday onwards. Slept at 3am on Wednesday night because I was stressing about my modules. So I decided to take a break from CORS and did up the feedback form that I needed to send out to stakeholders the next day. Slept at 3am on Thursday night because I was preparing farewell gifts for my colleagues. Slept at 3am on Friday night because I was celebrating the end of my internship by using the computer and finishing up what I didn’t manage to complete at work to send to my colleague HAHA.
I was quite upset that I couldn’t manage to finish sending out all the emails that I was supposed to send out because of several delays. I had to clarify a lot of things and wait for people to get back to me so there was a fair bit of delay. I managed to send out most of the confusing batches but didn’t get to the end of the list. Felt quite bad that I had to handover the work to another colleague to do 😦
On my second last lunch with the interns, we went to Nassim HIll YAY YAY DIDN’T EAT PORRIDGE!! It was one of the yummiest lunches ever I think. Nassim Hill is always good. Too bad the one for one deal is no more I think sigh. It was a really nice lunch. The food was good, the company was great and it was just lots and lots of fun. Lunches with the interns is something I really miss a fair bit now 😦
On my last day, some of us interns had lunch with the director of the HR department and another person from the HR department who used to handle the internship and the Management Associate programme (something STB has for fresh grads). It was rather nice of them to bother to treat us to lunch. ALL THOSE HORROR STORIES OF INTERNS BEING TREATED BADLY. It’s quite untrue at least in STB guys. So if you are thinking of interning somewhere next summer, STB might be quite a good choice.
The lunch overran till 3pm OMG. I was so panicky by the time I got back because I had SO MUCH TO DO before 6pm. I barely noticed time passing in those three hours. I remember feeling so stressed that I was quite on the verge of tears because I really wanted to complete everything but it was so impossible. Plus I also had to get the clearance done since it was my last day. Thinking about it makes me feel so kan chiong already wow.
Oh yes Gab Teh baked butter cake because it was my last day and because I kept whining about it the day before omg. Touched ttm really that he bothered. The sad thing was… I didn’t even have much time to enjoy it because I was in such a hurry the whole afternoon SIGH. At least I took a slice and yay it was rly rather rather yummy.
At around 6pm my colleague was like it’s okay just handover whatever you cannot finish. Was so so reluctant. LIKE NOOO PLEASE JUST LET ME FINISH THIS. T.T But I had to handover because I really couldn’t finish sigh.
My colleagues were SO nice omg they gave me an instax mini 8 (which I’ve been secretly wanting to get) and a really really nice card. I was so touched and happy to know that they’ve enjoyed having me around (or at least thats what they wrote HAHA) as much as I’ve enjoyed being there :’)
Didn’t manage to take photos with everyone because I was in such a confused state of mind with so much going on 😦 But here are some that I managed to take!
Had to rush through my clearance process after that. It was so so terrible omg so many forms to fill up, so many signatures to get I was so confused and lost and urgh it was just really bad. Thankfully Gab stayed back also – just occurred to me that w/o him I wouldn’t have been able to submit all the forms and move around the building because I didn’t have my temporary pass with me anymore T.T
So when I finally finally settled everything it was time to go! Then I suddenly realised that I forgot to give the director of my department the gift I prepared!! 😥 So I decided to go back down to the 7th floor to drop it off at his desk. DUM DUM DUMMMM NOT A VERY GOOD IDEA.
On the island where Gab and I sit are are four other colleagues – two guys and two girls. They usually leave quite early but that day one of the guys (let’s just call him M to protect his identity plus I don’t want to have his name here to soil my diary oops) was still there when it was already almost 8pm!! Quite unfortunately our timing matched his, so after I dropped off my gift, he was also just done with his work. SO BO PIAN RIGHT MUST WALK TO THE BUS STOP WITH HIM.
Zzzz. I must clarify that why I never actually had anything against him, I always felt slightlyyy uncomfortable with him because I felt that he was a bit weird. It’s just the vibe he gave me. Plus he’s a bit tooo chatty for comfort (omg is that what some people think of me?!) so idk, I just never really liked to be trapped in conversation with him. Plus, just that day we found out (through the other colleagues) that at his previous company’s dinner and dance, he actually cross-dressed. Which is okay, I mean I think it’s pretty sporting of him? The odd thing however, was how darn proud of it he was!! Like he showed the photos of his cross dressing day AND the video. Plus he kept saying that oh people couldn’t even tell the difference between him and a real girl. I’M LIKE UMM is that rly something to be proud of?! Okay quite judgey of me but really WEIRD VIBE LEVEL 1000 OKAY.
So imagine my discomfort when I realised that I’d have to be trapped in conversation with him for the ENTIRE way to the bus stop. I was actually quite looking forward to walking to the bus stop w Gab because it’s like habit since we usually leave office together and idk, I just wanted a nice last memory of leaving the office. BUT THENNNNN intruder M came along and just dominated the conversation. I was rly rather sian about it and kept giving my usual 敷衍 answers. What made things worse was that when we FINALLY got to the bus stop, he didn’t seem to have a bus to take?! Seriously. Because he usually walks to the MRT but decided to accompany us to the bus stop (no really he didn’t have to. Like rly. Didn’t have to.) So logically he could have taken any bus that goes to the MRT. And several buses came and went and in my head I was like ?!?!?!? what’s this guy’s problem. Also I wanted to get dinner but didn’t want to eat alone so I wanted to ask Gab if he could accompany lonely me. But I knew, knew for certain, as certain as it Singapore is sunny that HE WOULD VOLUNTEER TO ACCOMPANY ME FOR DINNER ALSO OMG. NO PLEASE NOOOOOO.
So I decided to text Gab to ask if he could have dinz with me. AND YAY DINNER BUDDY. Luckily Gab had enough sense to realise I was avoiding Intruder M already. Omg imagine if he went like “whoa why you text me” aloud. I WOULD HAVE DIED. Rly. Just walk onto the street into the path of an incoming car man. IT WAS SUCH TORTURE.
So we finally boarded the bus that would take us to the MRT (oh guess who followed along omg rly now.) Alighted at Orchard MRT and I casually asked intruder M where he was headed. AND HE CASUALLY REPLIED “Wherever you’re going lor” OMG
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG. I DIED.
That’s when I decided ENOUGH IS ENOUGH (oh did I mention that he FORCED me to watch the video of his 5 seconds of fame as a cross dresser during the D&D). So at the zebra crossing near the bus stop, literally the FIRST exit I saw immediately after he said that, I said “okay I’m going here bye”
SWEET RELIEF AND FREEDOMMMMM.
Felt quite bad for deserting Gab but I think he handles that sort of thing way better than me. Anyway he made his escape pretty soon so we met up and went for dinner yay. Got to know Gab better and now I’m happy to count him among my friends 😀
Overall, if you cannot already tell, I really really enjoyed my internship. Be it the people, the work I got to do and the skills I learnt. Sure there were periods of time when I didn’t have anything to do (generally that time was put to good use doing NM stuff oops) but there were really busy periods of time too. I’m quite sad that I’m unable to stay till the end of the project I was helping out in, but at least I’ll be able to see a bit of what I did when the website is launched – so I’m quite excited about it.
And I really learnt A LOT throughout this internship. But when you ask me to articulate exactly what I’ve learnt… I can’t I think a lot of what i learnt was through observing? And sitting in meetings and generally keeping my eyes and ears open. I think a really important takeaway I got from this was no matter how stupid or insignificant you think the thing you’re doing is, in the end it will play a role in the bigger picture.
I’ve been so so happy during my internship, I doubt any other internship experience will be able to match up. And really, I think at least 40% of my happiness stems from the lovely group of interns I met. The other huge part is because of my awesome awesome team who are so nice, friendly, accepting and understanding of me and the mistakes I made. They gave me so many opportunities to learn and really treated me like one of their team which I so appreciate instead of just a minion there for them to use. I’ll miss being called Peaches by them hahaha.
Okay that’s the end of my reflection on my internship 😀 Hope it was at least an interesting read if you manage to get through it all ^^
This year’s a special year for my dad (at least to my family) because it’s my dad’s 60th birthday!! Like so old right wow. That means my dad and my age (generation) gap is 39 years OMG I never realised. That’s really a rather large age gap right?? Anw my mum wanted to do something special for my dad since it’s a milestone age and all. And since my dad is such a social butterfly (really, he has A LOT of friends so popz my pops hahaha geddit. Not that I call him pops la), we thought it’d be kinda nice if we invited his friends and had a party woohoo. But he vetoed the idea, saying he rather have a dinner w the extended family (aww) so my mum organised that.
Then the next thing was the birthday present. We generally don’t buy my dad a bday present becos he’s not into this kinda thing. To him a birthday is nothing v important so in line with that we don’t get him a gift either LOL. But honestly.. we dk what to get for him also? But one night when he was w my cousins at a wake, my cousin introduced him to xiaomi -.- THANKS MAN. Haha my first reaction was omg noooo. Becos to buy it, I’ve to camp online and wait for them to release it then frantically click buy. Don’t like to do that kinda thing zz. But being a good daughter, I decided to try my luck.
The sales were at two hour intervals – 10am, 12noon, 2pm etc. My class started at 12noon so I decided to try for the 10am one. Tried to log in at about 9.50 and guess what. I COULDNT EVEN LOG IN OMG. Heavy traffic on the site zzzzz. So I was q disappointed already becos like I thought I prob wouldn’t be able to get it in school. Nevertheless, I decided to continue trying. SOMEHOW ON THAT DAY I got to school early for my 12noon lesson. Come to think of it, it is quite miraculous. This time I learnt from my previous experience and was signed in at like 11.45am.
Spent the first few minutes of my lesson frantically clicking BUY BUY BUY. Hahaha and GUESS WHO GOT IT WOOHOOOOO OMG I felt so incredibly VICTORIOUS. WHAT A HEADY RUSH OF TRIUMPH. I wanted to do it again man. SO ADDICTIVE HAHAHA.
Was so happy that I got it!! Then I devised a plan hahaha. Decided to lie to my dad that I didn’t get it. Chances are that he’d believe me because I already told him not to be too hopeful about me getting it. Plus I was having lessons so prob cannot buy right. Initially we didn’t plan to get that as a gift for my dad but since I got it, I immediately realised that OMG perf gift for my dad. Just had to wait and keep it a secret until his birthday teehee devious 😀 Told practically everyone that I managed to get it becos yes I was THAT excited haha yknw how I get when I get excited about something oops.
Colluded with my cousin to make the impact of the birthday present better! He managed to get the phone for my grandaunt and his sisters so he liaised w my grandaunt who kept going on and on about how she got the phone but my dad didn’t LOL. All to make him feel even more sian about it.
Days passed and finally it was my dad’s birthday! We went to some restaurant in idk some ulu part of the world. But the food was not bad. Omg I remember they had these AMAZING salted egg yolk prawns. SO FREAKING YUMMY I LOVED IT. Anw the dinner was like normal family dinners la haha nothing super special. THE ONLY EXCITING PART OF COURSE was when we gave him his birthday present. Omg his reaction was HILARIOUS. He was so so happy, partly because I think he was so disappointed at not getting the phone. He kept saying rly louding ‘I have Xiaomi!!!!’ HAHAHA so cute!! I felt so warm and fuzzy inside that I managed to make my dad so happy yay :D:D:D
Took a family photo which was rather nice imo and then yay went home. It was one of my most successful surprises ever man. So satisfying the look on my dad’s face when he opened the present! ^^ Oh but like less than 5 mins of giving it to him… I STARTED TO REGRET LOL. Becos guess who’s the one who has to configure everything to RESEMBLE his prev phone T.T
I’m taking and adapting this post from my Dayre post not because I’m lazy but because I felt a need to have a record of this lovely dream in my WP so when I browse my tags I can be pleasantly surprised and happy to read this teehee.
—- DREAM STARTS HERE —–
Okay so I’m in some school I think. The bell rings and we all hurry to class and it seems like some singing class. Like I’m in some theatre/musical school. I immediately notice /point out Xiumin and Luhan to my friend like -nudge nudge look they’re together AGAIN- apparently lately xiumin has been sitting in the corner /side while Luhan has been taking the centre stage but then I had this theory that the pair will definitely seek each other out once they had the opportunity.
So we all settle down and some girl bursts in front and decides to sing. I think she doesn’t really sing that often because all our reactions are like omg she can sing so well?!! And I think she’s been hiding it because she has a crush on one of the older guys in class which makes her shy but he isn’t there for now so she has courage. However halfway through her singing he comes in and she fumbles and blushes and rushes back to her seat. I think this part kinda draws inspiration from a K-drama I watched at the beginning of the year called What’s Up! Starring Daesung and a girl from SPICA and some other people. Basically they’re all like musical majors and yknw la-dee-la the usual growing up kinda story.
After that we cut to a scene where we’re sitting in a rather strange formation – like we’re not all facing one direction but some T shape..? Okay no more like F shape except with more rows. And we’re attending some lecture in Chinese I surmised it to be Chinese class. The teacher was 安娜 老师!! My JC Chinese teacher wow. But okay unimportant because YKNW WHO WAS SITTING IN FRONT OF ME????? KRIS. KRIS FROM EXO. okay xiu min and luhan also exo la I forgot to mention. But anyway it seemed like me and Kris were friends so I wasn’t like super affected by his presence. BTW he was v handsome in my dream also omg. Okay anyway as usual I wasn’t listening and I happened to be sitting next to Corrine so I kept talking to her haha maybe it’s a reflection of reality. I forgot who was sitting next to Kris tho. I think it was.. Lay? Or Sehun?? Can’t really recall.
But anyway we had these like photo cards of Exo I think they somehow gave it out during / before lesson becos they wanted to like show off their best students. Like yknw how schools always brag about their best /famous students. It was that kinda thing. So we all had photo cards of them and halfway through lesson I think I jokingly asked Kris to tease him (OMG ME TEASING KRIS YO YEAH THATS RIGHT WE WERE ON THAT KINDA LEVEL OF FRIENDSHIP) I was like ‘eh you wanna autograph my photo card or something’ then he gave me the please don’t be so lame look haha but humoured me becos like THATS WHAT FRIENDS DO LOLOL. Then I nudged my friend next to me who isn’t Kris’ friend and I was like I bet you want his autograph. The friend was a guy and he was like a bit furtive and embarrassed that yes he actually wanted it. Hahaha so I took his photo card also and shoved them all at Kris partly to annoy him to resemble the fans shoving things at home to sign but he wouldn’t mind becos yknw we tight like that HAHAHA. But he sign halfway then the teacher realised we weren’t paying attention and came over to ask us questions zz why is it that even in my dreams teachers do that?!!
But anyway Kris signed the photo cards and apparently SOMEHOW had one for 老师 also – no idea how that happened. And he wrote some v long and touching message about how the both of them came here from China LOL. Corrine shoved it at 老师 while the latter was angry. I think Corrine was tryna defuse the anger haha good try kris can melt anyone’s anger. But anyway the dude next to us who’s apparently from China answered her question really well in English (ikr a bit like ????) And she was pleased.
Lesson dismissed after that and the guy diagonally in front of me was like oh yeah remember to let me know when you wanna watch a movie together which made me happy becos he makes me smile. And then I spotted Xiumin and Luhan going outta class together and then that’s all.
Hahaha okay a bit weird but the main thing is I dreamt of Exo and that I’m friends w Kris. I cut out some parts because I didn’t know how to note it down hahaha yknw how dreams are. When you wake up, it seems like there was hardly any coherent storyline to it. So I just picked the most coherent one to tell y’all and to share my early morning happiness hahaha wa the dream really made me feel damn happy sia.
—- end of dayre post —-
Ok yup that’s all not bad for a dream right? Actually there was another dream before that I think but it wasn’t as clear. Like when I woke up there were only like snippets of the scenes in that dream so not that important but that dream also gave me a happy warm and fuzzy feeling inside so that’s nice 😀
I was a bit surprised that I’d dream of Exo because I haven’t been tumblr-ing for quite awhile because of the whole fever thing over the weekend and trying my best to recover. So like maybe… withdrawal symptoms from not seeing their pictures so often or something HAHA. Either that or it could be PJ and Susu and I talking about them q often. Whatever it is, I’m glad I had the dream even if you call me a crazy fangirl teehee.